This is my story thru adoption, and life after...

 I went to my first prenatal doctor appointment today. I met my case manager there, Patti. She will go with me to all my appointments.  It was a simple appointment, they asked me questions about my previous pregnancies and took some blood for testing. They did an ultrasound  and informed me i am  having a girl. We went and ate at Wingers after we left the doctors. She is a sweet woman.  S he informed me they offered support groups / scrap booking  on Tuesdays, and take us to do an activity on Thursdays for the birth moms when they get to their third trimester. I am not in my third trimester yet but i am anxious to meet other birth moms. I guess they have women come in from all over the states. Well I'm excited, until next time....

I looked up  adoption agencies  online  today and one stood out to me, Heart to Heart Adoptions. I called this morning with lots of questions, and asked if I  could come in. I was an emotional wreck when I  walked thru their doors. I spilled my heart out to a woman name Patti, she was very understanding and sweet. She informed me that i can make the decision and list the father as unknown, which for my safety is what i plan to do. As i was filling out the paperwork today , she informed me that when the time comes, I  would get to pick your family . I t is comforting knowing I   have say in who your parents will be . I put on the paperwork I want a family who is financial stable, non LDS, doesn't live in Utah, strong education options, and the opportunity to travel. 

I went to the  P regnancy  R esource  C enter today, asking for help. The sweet nurse did an ultrasound verifying  I  am  definitely  pregnant. She provided me with a folder full of information about all of my options... Parent, Abortion, or Adoption. In the folder is a little book, "So i was thinking about adoption..." I started reading it. and a few pages into it,  I  started bawling my eyes out. I realize now that adoption is such a blessing.  t here  are  families who dream of becoming parents, and  I  could make a families dream come true. I don't know anything about the process but I plan on looking into soon . The only time I have heard of adoption is when kids are taken due to the parents not being fit to provide for the children.  I have been a mother for over 7 years, I'm 30 years old, no high school diploma, and no carrer job. I am a stay at home mom right now, relying on state assistance to help sup...

I went to the 72 hour consent class that is required in the state of Utah to get an abortion. Since going I have scheduled to have it done 3 times and I couldn't bring myself to go. I don't know what is different this time, cause I have had two abortions when I was younger. I had my son Alex, 2 abortions, then Natalie, and then this pregnancy. I found a place that will give me an ultrasound for free so I go in the morning. I want to know how for along I am.