This is my story thru adoption, and life after...

I went to the doctors today and the ultrasound measured you bigger than you should be. She also noticed an increase in my amniotic fluid from the last ultrasound. My placenta has moved in the right direction, and is now only partially covering my cerv i x. I was super happy to hear that. Dr Colby stressed the importance of me eating healthy once again. He said to watch my carb ohydrate  intake. The more carbs I  eat, the bigger you will get. If a baby is over 10 pounds, then its a mandatory C section.  After my appointment, I drove to the  office to meet Patti. That ’ s where I chose to do the conference call . Patti mentioned we could just do a three way with them, but I didn't want to be distracted by my kids while talking to them. I asked P atti to do the talking, cause I was  super nervous  and I barley have a voice cause I am sick . We came to the agreement that if I like them and want to be matched with  them to give her a thumbs up during the ...

Today I was given 4 profiles to look at of families waiting to adopt. I have been patiently waiting for this day, its what every birth mom looks forward to. I want you to have a better life than  I  could give you, you deserve it. I want you to have a mommy and daddy who you can count on to tuck you in every night. I want you to wake up in the same bed every day, knowing you are safe. I want you to have endless opportunities all throughout your life. I want you to be able to travel the world.  I know choosing to place my baby was a big decision, but choosing your parents was going to be the biggest decision of my life, trusting complete strangers to raise you. I read each profile from front to back. Each one of them very different from the others.  There was one profile that I couldn't  stop looking at, Elizabeth, Andy, and Henry !  The profile I couldn't stop looking at. The things I specifically listed that I want your family to have, they h...

Today at my doctor appointment  I  had an ultrasound, and was informed  I have placenta previa.  That means my placenta is covering my cervix . Dr. Colby said it is more common than not for it to go away on its own. As your uterus  stretches, it pulls the placenta away from the cerv i x. He suggested I get a ultrasound every two weeks to keep an eye on the placenta. If for any reason my placenta doesn't move, it is required for a c section delivery, and the thought scared me. I don't want to be in the hospital any longer than i have to be after i have the baby.Making the decision to place a baby for adoption  is rough, i can only imagine seeing a baby after placement will be hard too.