This is my story thru adoption, and life after...

I went to the doctors today and the ultrasound measured you bigger than you should be. She also noticed an increase in my amniotic fluid from the last ultrasound. My placenta has moved in the right direction, and is now only partially covering my cerv i x. I was super happy to hear that. Dr Colby stressed the importance of me eating healthy once again. He said to watch my carb ohydrate  intake. The more carbs I  eat, the bigger you will get. If a baby is over 10 pounds, then its a mandatory C section.  After my appointment, I drove to the  office to meet Patti. That ’ s where I chose to do the conference call . Patti mentioned we could just do a three way with them, but I didn't want to be distracted by my kids while talking to them. I asked P atti to do the talking, cause I was  super nervous  and I barley have a voice cause I am sick . We came to the agreement that if I like them and want to be matched with  them to give her a thumbs up during the ...

Today I was given 4 profiles to look at of families waiting to adopt. I have been patiently waiting for this day, its what every birth mom looks forward to. I want you to have a better life than  I  could give you, you deserve it. I want you to have a mommy and daddy who you can count on to tuck you in every night. I want you to wake up in the same bed every day, knowing you are safe. I want you to have endless opportunities all throughout your life. I want you to be able to travel the world.  I know choosing to place my baby was a big decision, but choosing your parents was going to be the biggest decision of my life, trusting complete strangers to raise you. I read each profile from front to back. Each one of them very different from the others.  There was one profile that I couldn't  stop looking at, Elizabeth, Andy, and Henry !  The profile I couldn't stop looking at. The things I specifically listed that I want your family to have, they h...

Today at my doctor appointment  I  had an ultrasound, and was informed  I have placenta previa.  That means my placenta is covering my cervix . Dr. Colby said it is more common than not for it to go away on its own. As your uterus  stretches, it pulls the placenta away from the cerv i x. He suggested I get a ultrasound every two weeks to keep an eye on the placenta. If for any reason my placenta doesn't move, it is required for a c section delivery, and the thought scared me. I don't want to be in the hospital any longer than i have to be after i have the baby.Making the decision to place a baby for adoption  is rough, i can only imagine seeing a baby after placement will be hard too. 

I went to the doctors today and was informed that I definitely do have diabetes. Dr. Colby sent in a prescription. I know I have it, but have never taken care of it. I don't know the do's and don'ts so he sent in a referral to go see a dietitian for the diabetes class. Patti is so sweet, I guess she is going to go with me to the class cause its 4 hours long. It will be nice to know what a diabetic diet looks like, and the complications it can cause if its not managed during pregnancy. Colby told me to start a food journal and keep a log of my blood sugars cause he wants to see them at each visit.

 I went to my first prenatal doctor appointment today. I met my case manager there, Patti. She will go with me to all my appointments.  It was a simple appointment, they asked me questions about my previous pregnancies and took some blood for testing. They did an ultrasound  and informed me i am  having a girl. We went and ate at Wingers after we left the doctors. She is a sweet woman.  S he informed me they offered support groups / scrap booking  on Tuesdays, and take us to do an activity on Thursdays for the birth moms when they get to their third trimester. I am not in my third trimester yet but i am anxious to meet other birth moms. I guess they have women come in from all over the states. Well I'm excited, until next time....

I looked up  adoption agencies  online  today and one stood out to me, Heart to Heart Adoptions. I called this morning with lots of questions, and asked if I  could come in. I was an emotional wreck when I  walked thru their doors. I spilled my heart out to a woman name Patti, she was very understanding and sweet. She informed me that i can make the decision and list the father as unknown, which for my safety is what i plan to do. As i was filling out the paperwork today , she informed me that when the time comes, I  would get to pick your family . I t is comforting knowing I   have say in who your parents will be . I put on the paperwork I want a family who is financial stable, non LDS, doesn't live in Utah, strong education options, and the opportunity to travel. 

I went to the  P regnancy  R esource  C enter today, asking for help. The sweet nurse did an ultrasound verifying  I  am  definitely  pregnant. She provided me with a folder full of information about all of my options... Parent, Abortion, or Adoption. In the folder is a little book, "So i was thinking about adoption..." I started reading it. and a few pages into it,  I  started bawling my eyes out. I realize now that adoption is such a blessing.  t here  are  families who dream of becoming parents, and  I  could make a families dream come true. I don't know anything about the process but I plan on looking into soon . The only time I have heard of adoption is when kids are taken due to the parents not being fit to provide for the children.  I have been a mother for over 7 years, I'm 30 years old, no high school diploma, and no carrer job. I am a stay at home mom right now, relying on state assistance to help sup...